blergh....

silat truly ruined my mood for today
i chose the wrong group that practices at 4pm and NOT in the morning
and have i told that it's on a fucking saturday?
fucking fuckity fuck fuck!
how am i suppose to go back home if i had to go to silat practices at 4pm on saturdays?!!?!!??!!
fuck it
now my mood is totally ruined
and my holidays have the potential to suck in accordance to my future sulkingness.
damn it!
i will try my best next week to switch groups.
if i were not to succeed, help me.....

almost confession of a (kinda) broken heart...

oh my. my heart is hurting. again.
when i thought that the light was going to finally, fully shine through
darkness came creeping sprinting in full speed.

i was finally elated
my heart was finally rid of the ache that had set a few months ago
my friends all kind of congratulated me
pushing me closer and closer to that person
made me happy and happier with each smirks from my friends
whenever that person was around
i was almost on cloud nine...

but then, that person became happy again
and my (love) life turned upside down yet again
i was sad again
but it doesn't matter
i don't want to wait again
it kills me each and every time i see them
but now
i'm happy for that person if they are happy themselves
and i shall move on
and find someone else
someone much, much better
for me =)

<3