forever 21 18

my birthday's coming up in a week, and i hate it.
i don't want to turn 19.
i want to be forever 18.
where is Edward Cullen when i need him?!!

puncak perdana....

i might actually miss it terribly...

melylolo arylala

indie goodness 150309

I'd read it everyday...

It's hard to wake up
when the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted, it's so pathetic
it makes no sense at all
I'm ripe with things to say
the words rot and fall away
My stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day

So here's your holiday,
hope you enjoy it this time
you gave it all away.
It was mine, so when you're dead and gone,
will you remember this night?
twenty years now lost.
It's not right.

Their anger hurts my ears
been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
it makes no sense at all
I see them everyday
we get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants, and it's what she wants
then why is there so much pain?

So here's your holiday,
hope you enjoy it this time
you gave it all away.
It was mine, so when you're dead and gone,
will you remember this night?
twenty years now lost
It's not right.

So here's your holiday,
hope you enjoy it this time
you gave it all away.
It was mine, so when you're dead and gone,
will you remember this night?
twenty years now lost.
It's not right
It's not right
It's not right
It's not right

Blink-182 - Stay Together For The Kids

you don't talk of.........

the exams has finally started for me. i had my first paper this morning, which was Appreciation of Asian Arts. it was nervewrecking at first but thank goodness i was able to answer them smoothly. and now, 5 more papers to go -_-..........

in the afternoon, i hung out with one of my best friends. we strolled around sacc mall and etc because we were sooooo fucking bored holed out at puncak. afterwards we had an early dinner at McDonalds and had a lot of fun talking and gossiping. we also talked about our worries about the future. worries about how will we be like when we get older. we even talked about the kiamat, hari kiamat, an inevitable day and just waiting to happen anytime. agak cuak sebab kitorang takut yg nnt xsempat taubat sebelum hari tersebut. ye la, masing2 boleh tahan la dosa2 sume. muda lagi, masih active mencuba benda2 baru, including benda2 yang membawa kpd dosa. eeeeeee takot!

nowadays i'm veeeeery paranoid about death and the end of the world. everywhere i go, everything i do makes me worry that i might die anytime because of it. i don't want to die. not yet. i want to live my life to the fullest. i want to have a real job. i want to own my own home, i wanna get married, i wanna have lots and lots of babieeesssss!!!!!! hahah.

oh well. lets just pray for the best in our lives.

back to the top of the world Puncak Perdana

yuppp... i'm back! and the weather couldn't get any hotter than here =(
it's midnight. i want to sleep. but it has been almost a week that i hadn't been online, so, yeah.
exams will start this wednesday and i'm kinda scared. i haven't studied yet. damn it.
it has only been approximately 3 hours since i arrived at puncak, and already i miss home...
but i do miss my friends too and i can't wait to see them =)
and i miss bumping into him.. but damn it he's taken.. *sigh*

Phew..............

Finally, classes for this semester are finally over. No more going to class, no more having to climb up and down the stairs to go to class, no more having to endure the fight with sleepiness in class, no more dramas, no more stress, and most importantly, NO MORE ASSIGNMENTS!!!!!! Woooooooooooooohoooooooooo!

But the end of classes also means no more hanging out after class, no more goofing off in class, no more joking with a handful of great lecturers, no more checkin’ out people going to and coming back from class, and most importantly, the start of the study week, meaning EXAMINATIONS!

These last couple of weeks has been the hardest of all. Assignments were up to our noses, most of them pending and were done at the 11^th hour (sumpah xtipu!). More dramas ensued as a result of too much stress that collided with one another. Important errands were done at the last minute. All of which put so much stress on our shoulders. When stress + erratic weather come together, it could only mean one thing = SICKNESS.

Most of us are sick right now because of those two things. I myself has been sick for approximately two weeks, with the sickness ranging from flu, cough, fever, and now, all of those combined. I watched a screening last Friday (3 Budak Melayu, best heehee) and fits of coughs can be heard separately apart from my own.

But now that all of these things had come and pass, it is now time to relax and unwind a little, but preparations for the exams has to be made too. I hope that I could retain my pointers which was quite good actually last semester. I wish that I’ll get into the Dean’s List again. I want to make my parents proud and prove to them that while I might play around a lot instead of focusing on my studies, I can still do well in it. I will also prove to them that the course I’m taking is not as easy as it seems AT ALL and that it had taught me a lot of things that I could use in life later on and that it would be useful for me succeed in life.

Alas, I now can continue on to study week, and finally, EXAMS!!!!!! And finally finally, H O L I D A Y ! ! ! ! !

p/s: agak skema la post yang ni. Huahah.