light that the dark brings

thank you H1N1. now i have a 1 week semester break. and i also have no idea what fill into my suddenly empty calendar. hmmmmmmm......

little heart

this little heart loves to sing. this little heart loves music. this little heart is too selfless. this little heart is too nice. this little heart is too giving. this little heart is too soft. this little heart is forgiving. this little heart is calm and contented. this little heart is sometimes mellow. this little heart is sometimes depressed. this little heart is indecisive. this little heart loves to dream. this little heart wants a lot of things. this little heart never gets them. this little heart always falls for the wrong one. but this little heart wants its other half. this little heart is mine.

Into The Wild.

Into The Wild can easily be summed up in one word; Powerful. It was based on a true story about a young man who feels that there is more to life than graduating college, working a decent well-paid job, all the materiality, hypocrisy, unfairness & unjust, dealing with troubled parents who seems to never care about anything else but living a mediocre life and shielding the dark side of the house away from judging eyes. It is a tale not about finding oneself; it has been found and is being pursuit.

I watch this movie with such an awe and respect for the young man. Chris must have been a brave person who kept true to his virtue without letting anyone tarnishing it. Almost each and every scene got me wondering, where the hell did this one 20-something guy found the guts and went on such a self-revolutionary adventure? Some might think that he had gone mental, which happened quite sometime towards the end of the movie, but I think that he is a genius. How many people are there who could have ever thought about hitchhiking through America and living life off wild animals and edible plants deep in the forest, and better yet, actually making it a reality?

By heart, Into The Wild was an eye-opener, awe-inspiring story told beautifully with graceful raw edges that should be told to everyone. It has definitely inspire me to better myself in this cruel, cruel world, but it has also made me realized that amidst all the hypocrites, there are a handful of genuine people that will teach us some of life’s important lessons and I hope that I will someday find my own. My only regret about this empowering movie is that I wish Chris had survived, and lived to tell his own beautiful story himself.

bad attempt at trying to put emotions into pretty words.

pabila hati ini melayang tinggi ke awang-awangan
berada di dunia kayangan penuh fantasi
pabila hati ini jatuh bawah ke tanah
berada di dunia realiti penuh kekecewaan.

yeah.
dah dua kali ku kecewa.
tapi, life has to go on, and this heart just have to deal with it...

current hobbies and lusts

I now have a hobby of reading fashion blogs. they're pretty cool and it definitely helped me look for styles that i love. the only downside of it is that it caused me to feel intense liking/love toward items of clothing that are hard to find here in Malaysia, and being a regular student, are truly out of my financial reach. i now lust over this amazing pair of shoes.





they're one of the pairs from Converse's line of The Doors inspired shoes. i absolutely LOVE this one!! i've always wanted a pair of leather boots but wasn't keen on getting actual ones. this particular pair is leather, it's black, it's extra high high-top chucks, it's from Converse, The Doors are awesome, it looks like a pair of boots but it's not and it's PERFECT!!!! i imagine myself wearing these bad boys to toughen up a simple black babydoll dress or any classy dress, paired with tights and and stacked up silver bangles. or maybe with a loose oversized shirt and a pair of leggings or bleached blue jeans tucked into the shoes. ahhhh how i wish........

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my birthday sucked. period. it's bad enough that i feel old and was not in the mood for any kind of acknowledgment such as wishes and stuff. and that morning he had to come and further ruin my already low, low mood and forgot about my birthday. i did nothing at all on my birthday, i only watch tv and went online a bit and eat and thats just it. but that night my family decided to have my birthday dinner with the whole family, at hartamas square. WTF! i was deeply embarassed. i wish i could just leave. it was very awkward and i can see that most of us were uncomfortable. they could at least pick someplace else which is waaaay more appropriate for a family dinner, let alone a birthday. worst.birthday.ever.

at least the cake was super yummy

and i got a kickass birthday present from my sisters

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the gedikness @ subway

on the way to buy ourselves some terminator tickets!

boys will be boys

ary and rosma

ary wants a picture with am

azfar all blurred out

goodbye.