bodoh

mesti kau pun period gak kan.

giving up

on happiness
on joy
on stability
on calm
on love
on life

GROW UP


they don't exist...

sad, sorry little self.

depressed..

01.06.

tonight, i will be saying goodbye to teenagehood. the last time i can say "-teen" if someone asks my age. it's hard. i loved being a teenager. i love the feeling of youth that comes with the age. i love that people still think you're not quite mature because you're a teen. i love saying "I'm -teen years old!". i love being immature. i want to dress up like teenagers do. i'm not ready to grow up. i'm not ready to have more responsibility that comes with future age. i want to be forever young..... Edward Cullen, HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!

on another note, i now fucking hate 01.06. thanks to him, i often become sad or depressed whenever someone mentions 01.06. it's because his fucking whore's is on 02.06. FUCK THEM!!!! now, 01.06 will forever be a painful reminder of 02.06 and i will always be the victim of this accidental tragedy to another bigger tragedy. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know that those who doesn't know will be confused as hell about those numbers and what it meant and who he and her is or whatever. i'm glad for that, that's exactly what i'm after. but for those who knows me and understood perfectly what it meant, I BEG YOU ALL to NEVER mention 01.06 EVER again. family, friends, whoever...please...

i beg you..

The 'D' Word

depression. that is something that i've never really felt before. but now, i think that might actually be in a state of depression. why, you may ask? well, a lot of things had happened these past couple of years, and i've been strong enough to ward off any miserable feelings, but it seems that i have now lost the battle.

i'm miserable...

MJB

in love with the most beautiful man in the world..... ♥

merenung........

Dibawah bintang-bintang berkelipan
Memikirkan tentang liku-liku kehidupan
Tentang masa hadapan
Bersama teman-teman seperjuangan
Di dalam kegelapan
Diterangi lampu jalan
Yang sayu-sayu kelihatan
Di kelilingi bangunan
Yang di diami manusia penuh harapan
Tanpa ingin melakukan kesilapan
Kerana jalan harus ke hadapan

By Mel, Ruhil & Sabrina ♥